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Judgemental for My Own Good!

Wed, 23 Dec 2009 12:47:33 GMT

Am I too judgmental?

Maybe I am. Maybe I'm not.

When it comes to people I care about, I can't help myself. I always expect the worse from the person -- especially if they're getting in to a relationship with them -- unless I am proven otherwise. Usually it's my gut-instinct that tells me if the person they're interested in or are interested in them is good for them or not. Majority of the time -- and I try to keep my mouth shut and my damn opinion to myself -- I am right.

I may not be as experienced as everybody else as far as relationships' concerned since I've never been in any real relationship to know what hell goes on in it, but sometimes I doubt it takes someone with enough experience or not to be able to judge one's character and assess from there whether that person's good or bad for someone. I don't need to meet the person face to face to be able to tell if my gut likes him/her or not; just by listening to people tell me about him/her is enough -- and as of late, I guess because I judge people too much, people just don't tell me shit.

You know, that's just fine by me. They want to get hurt, then I don't mind them getting hurt! But in my defence, I tell them what I feel and what I think as a heads-up to them; it's something they can either avoid so they won't get hurt in the long run or something they can ignore and go on with life as usual. Instead of being glad that they have a friend who is brutally honest with them, they resent that fact.

Hell, doesn't honesty count for anything anymore these days? Everyone's fucking honest with their damn opinions about me -- and let me tell you, majority of what I hear them tell me ain't at all pretty -- and even though I don't want to hear any more of them, I just take it and move on. Or at least try to move on without making a big deal about it. I think I've grown a thick skin or something coz on the outside it looks like I just deflect the comments I hear, but on the inside it kills me.

It hurts, you know? But I just chalk it up as another lesson learned. Something I keep at the back of my head and work on not doing or just perfecting.

Now that I think about it, is it because of my big yap that I don't have that many close friends? You'd think someone would appreciate a friend who'd tell them to their face if what they're wearing's so damn ugly it's not their style, but nooooooooooooooo. They'd rather I lie to them and tell them what they wanted to hear as opposed to the truth. If that is the case, then hey, I don't have a problem with that.

No, wait, I do have a problem with it! Oh hell, whatever! I'm a loner anyway. Having myself as my company ain't at all that bad. I've been accompanying myself for so damn long now we're used to each other!

the aftermath...

Wed, 09 Dec 2009 07:41:06 GMT

NaNoWriMo came and went. I was still under the 20,000 word count by the end of November. I figured I would've been able to crack at least the 30,000 words if I wasn't too damn busy! I mean, I had 2 jobs I juggled, not to mention at the beginning of November I was just getting better from my bout with the flu, and on top of that, I had two classes that I attend and needed to study for every Saturday! In as much as I wanted to squeeze in some writing time, I can't.

Now that November's gone by and we're into December, this weekend is my finals weekend. I am writing my final exams for my two classes and HOPEFULLY I pass both so I can enroll at other classes needed for the course I'm taking.

I managed to update one of my many WIP crossover fanfics. It's over at TwistingTheHellmouth website and it's entitled All In A Day's Work. I am crossing-over three fandoms here: Bones, Buffy the Vampire Slayer & my most recent obsession, NCIS. The third chapter's kinda lengthy, and I didn't expect it to be that long, but it just did. I very seldom write long chapters, especially for fanfiction stories. I guess I just couldn't cut this chapter into two or three parts hence why it remained one chapter.

Garsh it's late and I'm still up! Well, I think I better hit the sack now or if not, well, I better work on my stories. Since I've updated my 3rd chapter for this WIP crossover fic of mine, I think I can work on my other non-fanfiction related stories.

Week 3 & I'm STILL Under 20k!!!!

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 22:45:57 GMT

This is crazy. I know it won't be easy when I first joined it, and every year since my first year of joining I barely cracked the 50k goal. But at least this year I am able to keep working on just one story and not change it every so often once my muse decides to abandon me for something else.

NaNoWriMo is both fun and challenging, and I really enjoy working on it every year during November albeit numerous setbacks (work mostly). But I strive to persevere and today...well, to begin with I was just coming off a nasty flu bug at the beginning of NaNo, then work seemed to go crazy, and if that ain't bad enough, writer's block came threatening, but thank goodness the latter hasn't fulfilled that damn threat yet!

I am working on my NaNo entry as I blog. I just needed to get this out of my chest, but I still feel saddened because it's the 3rd week of NaNo already and I just cracked the 14k word count! How sad is that? I have a week and 2 days to go before the end of NaNo and I doubt I'll have close to 50k words written by then. But if I keep a positive mind...nah, I don't think so.

Anybody else out there participating in this year's NaNoWriMo? How are you doing with your entry so far?

Finally Moving Around Like a Normal Person Should!

Fri, 30 Oct 2009 18:43:01 GMT

This past few days had been horrendously draining for me.

I've been sick.

And it's not just any kind of sickness either.

I was struck by the notorious flu (influenza), and I think it wasn't just the regular flu either. Suffice to say I started feeling the brunt of it Sunday afternoon while I was out having lunch with my parents. I was just feeling fine when I woke up Sunday morning, and when the folks came back from church and asked me if I wanted to go out with them for a ride (they're dropping stuff off someplace and checking stuff some other place) I figured why not join them. After all it was Sunday and I ain't got anything planned (the previous night the surprise 30th anniversary party for the folks was a success, yes!) so I said yes.

We were at Walmart checking out goodies to give away for Halloween and goodies to send back to relatives in the Philippines. I was feeling okay still, until nearing the end of our shopping trip. I told Mom I was hungry coz technically the last time I ate was during dinner the night before and it was already around one in the afternoon by the time we were done buying what we needed to buy.

Even though there was a McDonald's inside Walmart, I told my folks I want to go to Boston Pizza instead coz I've been craving for some pasta like crazy! So we got to BPs and it wasn't busy. The dining area wasn't filled, but they were showing Lilo & Stitch on all TV screens. A quick survey of the place and I knew why; families with little kiddies were majority of the diners. No sweat, I don't mind watching cartoon movies. Heck, I enjoy watching cartoons over non-animated movies sometimes.

Anyway, so midway to our lunch my right hand felt numb all of a sudden. I mean, I was holding my fork still but I can't feel it, ya know? I had to put my fork down and gave my arm a massage because that was freaky. That has never happened to me before. After a while the numbness was gone and soon I was able to feel again, but after that it was all down hill.

My dad was looking for something and it was located on the west end of the city. Since he was driving and I was just in the backseat, I figured if I zonked out it wouldn't matter, so I gave in to my sudden sleepiness and before I knew it, the entire time (from the moment we left BP's parking lot until we reached our destination and then heading back home) I was out of it!

I couldn't help it! I was so damn sleepy! But since I was always sleepy, I didn't think much of it. It wasn't until later that evening that I really started feeling sick. It was cold, yeah, but I was freezing cold! And the dry cough I was suffering from earlier that day just became worse.

Everything happened so quickly. By the next day I knew I wasn't ready to go to work. I felt shitty. My head felt heavy. My nose was stuffy. I felt lethargic beyond belief and...in a nutshell I was sick. So I called in sick Monday morning thinking it would just be a passing 24-hour flu or whatever. By nightfall I knew I wasn't getting any better, and yet I went to my second job still just so I wouldn't be nagged to death about being sick and not really being sick, yadi-yadi-yada.

That was a wrong move. Good thing I survived it. I think my Dad knew I was really sick coz at one time he caught me snoozing while he finished up with one room and I was already done doing my half. I was a slowpoke that night. Heck, I couldn't even vigorously scrub the glass door to get some speck of dirt off it coz I didn't have that much energy in me that night to do it. I thought my Dad was gonna give me lip for that, but I think he saw me not faking my not feeling so well so he let it drop and re-wiped the glass door clean himself.

Suffice to say Monday night was no different from Sunday night -- only worse. My head felt like it was going to explode; my chest ached because of my coughing and my nose was stuffier than ever! So on Tuesday morning I called in sick again and this time went to the Medicentre. I supposed I could've gone to my regular doctor, but sometimes getting in to see her doesn't happen ASAP. Like if you wanted to see her at 10:00am, her secretary would fit you in for some time later in the day when there's an opening; like I can effing wait that long?!

So I was at the Medicentre. Siz drove me there coz there was no way I was fit to be behind the wheel. I was so proud of myself that I was able to pull myself together and didn't pass out or anything. The Medicentre was packed! And I had to take a number when I got in.

I was #55.

The wait to get registered was long (almost 45 minutes). By the time I stood in front of the receptionist giving her my info, I was close to passing out and my ears were plugged too so I thought I was underwater. Anyway, the wait to get called in to see one of the doctors on duty wasn't that long after that. I guess the admitting nurse saw the seriousness or severness or whatever of my condition coz when she asked me why I was there I told her I needed to know if what I have was flu or just a regular cold but I guess I not only felt like hell but I looked it as well so the wait was less than 15 minutes then I was in a room waiting to see the doctor.

And she confirmed it. I had the signs of flu and prescibed a medication for me to take for 5 days straight (still taking the meds; tomorrow's my last day of taking it). And after that I asked her for a sick note coz if I got the flu and needed to rest, I'd have to away from both jobs for the rest of this week and I need a valid excuse that I was indeed sick!

After our visit to the Medicentre I went back home, called my bosses at my two jobs and informed them of my situation. They were understanding and since everyone's aware that this time of the year is flu season, everyone was encouraged to stay at home when they got it as opposed to going to work still.

I woke up Wednesday morning feeling better than I've been the last couple of days, but by the end of the day I guess I wasn't 100% better coz I started to get tired. Thursday morning same thing. I woke up feeling better, but nearing the end of the day I started feeling drained.

Today, Friday, I woke up feeling a whole lot better. I'm moving around a lot seeing if I'd get tired easily, but so far so good. Now the big test will be tomorrow: I have to go to class.

I know, I know, I should stay at home still, but dammit, I have a quiz for my first class and I am not quite grasping the second class; I can't afford to miss it. But if I'm really feeling less than 75% okay, I'll talk to my instructor and tell her I'm leaving early coz I haven't fully recuperated from being sick this whole week just yet.

501 Must-Visit Destinations

Sun, 20 Sep 2009 04:41:59 GMT

Last weekend I went crazy and bought all four seasons of Supernatural and the season 8 of Smallville. Before that I bought some books that I have yet to read and will be reading soon.

Two of the books I bought were that of that 501 series. They were the journal kinds and both caught me fancy. Why? One because the other book was called 501 Must-See Movies and listed titles of movies I have seen and some I have heard of but haven't seen yet, so maybe one of these days I'll grab the copies of DVDs I already have and do one of my so-called movie marathons.

The other book was called 501 Must-Visit Destinations. Some of the places mentioned I've been to, but not all of 'em. So now I'm planning a "trip" to take some time in this lifetime of mine and check-off each of the suggested destinations listed in this travel journal book. Wouldn't that be something?

Honesty is the BEST Policy...

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 07:25:21 GMT

I've been hearing that phrase said a lot. I believe it, but then, don't you ever wonder when not to be too honest?

Don't get me wrong, I'd rather tell someone the truth, but do we always have to be 100% honest? In a relationship I know it's good to have an open communication between the two people involved, and sometimes honesty plays an integral part, but as a person, don't you think you'd want to keep some things to yourself and not just share everything with the person you're with?

Granted you're married or marrying the said person you're with, but just because you're promising forever with that person doesn't mean you'll have to strip yourself raw and have all your secrets be known to him or her. Am I being unreasonable here or what? As far as I'm concerned, you can't give everyone ammunition to use against you in the long run.

I'd like to believe in happily ever afters, but let's face it, on the road to that so-called being together forever though thick or thin, in sickness and in health, yadi-yadi-yada, it can get bumpy and let's face it, it sometimes gets downright nasty. So if you laid all your cards on the table, it can and will be used against you somewhere down the road.

I don't know. I don't mind sharing certain information about myself with the one I'm with, but I'd like to hold some things back just in case. Is that good or bad? What do you think?

Been A While...

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 07:59:10 GMT

Hell-Oh, Xanga!

Boy, it sure has been a while since I made an entry about...well, about something I blab about as opposed to review and blab about.

As I am typing this blog entry of mine, I am sitting on my bed inside my not-so-hot bedroom (trust me, every summer when the temps go UP my bedroom feels like a friggin' oven!!!) with my TV turned on and the channel tuned in to the Mystery channel.

Right now CSI: Crime Scene Investigation is on. It's a re-run of an old episode from the series' earlier years (after the season finale when Grissom & Sara's "closet" romance was revealed I kinda lost interest in it). I haven't seen this episode in a while so even though I know how this episode ends I'm still interested in it.

Anyway, before CSI Bones was on; it was an episode I haven't seen. I have yet to watch the third season of the series, but I haven't gotten around to it.

Anyway, while watching Bones it reminded me why I love that series even though I rarely get the chance to watch a brand new episode when it's in season. The chemistry between Brennan (Emily Deschenel - sp?) & Booth (David Boreanaz) was what pulled me in. They were each other's complete opposite and yet...and yet they fit well together.

In CSI Grissom (William Petersen) and Catherine's (Marg Helgenberger) relationship was what drew me in. Actually, it was Marg's character that drew me in. She's fiesty. She's sexy. She's cocky. She's smart. She's...well, she's my kinda woman! -LoL-

So, who's your favourite TV duo? Who's your kinda gal/guy? Got a favourite TV series? C'mon peeps, entertain me! Let's make this blog entry interactive! :)

a Relaxing Sunday Afternoon...

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 20:49:05 GMT

My nephew went home last night after spending Thursday and Friday night over at our place. I have to admit, I love my nephew but a 3-year-old tend to be a handful at times. I don't mind looking after him from time to time. heck, I don't even mind having him sleep over at our place provided I don't work the next day. Thursday night we had a bit of a problem coz both Mom and I were due to work the following day, Friday. Good thing sis was off and she took our nephew under her wing and he slept in her room Thursday night. Now Friday I was prepared to remain awake until the week hours of the morning if ever my nephew decided he didn't want to sleep, but like the previous night, he went and bunked-in with my sister so I was able to sleep somewhat peacefully once again.

It's a gorgeous Sunday afternoon. It was raining all day Friday, but all day Saturday it didn't even rain at all. I thought it would last night, but it didn't. And today...well, another nice, sunny day. So I took advantage of this nice weather and lugged my laptop out in our backyard. Of course I had to clean the table I'm using first coz it was dirty from having been rained on and such, but now it's nice and clean and I'm using it!

I can't believe summer's almost over. But if you live where I live you'll be asking "What summer?!"LoL

Seriously! We only experienced I think a week of summer and after that it felt like fall/spring/winter once again! Mind you during the week when it was uber hot (it was right after we got back from our trip to Waterton last month) I wanted it so badly to be fall already! -LoL- I just needed a break from the heatwave, ya know?

Well, my summer's pretty boring. Watched a few movies I wanted to see and spent majority of the time working my buns off! I did manage to get a week of holiday in last month, but I think that's the only holiday I'll be having until'next year. I'm still thinking on what to do for next year. It's a somewhat BIG DEAL of a year for me, ya know? Big event happening in my so-called life next year, so to speak, hehehehe.

Well, I guess I better refill my glass with Coke and continue munching on my crunchy Old Dutch extreme cheddar chips. I think I'm gonna put in some writing stuff for this current WIP I am working on. I dunno where this WIP will take me, but so far I'm internally giggling and feeling positive it will be going somewhere that'll probably surprise me, hehehe.

My LATEST Obsession...

Thu, 06 Aug 2009 04:59:52 GMT

...but unlike other obsessions out there, this one's really good for me, provided I stick to it. And I think I will be sticking to it like crazy glue on anything! -LoL-

What the heck am I talking about?

Simple.

Sis finally got her hands on a Wii Fit! It was on sale at Best Buy so she quickly snagged it.

Anyway, she bought it last Friday or Saturday and I didn't get the chance to use it until Sunday morning. I kinda set a goal to lose such and such pounds in 2 weeks, and while I'm working out (and trying to eat healthy as well or less or whatever) I am working out too doing some yoga poses and other exercises included in the disc.

It's fun, but it ain't easy. Some of 'em are easy, but as you unlock more and more poses and tests, it gets harder and harder. You'll be really challenged. But I was sweating lots! Just try the hula-hoop and see if you don't run out of breath before the timer runs out. -LoL-

Anyway, having a Wii Fit at home helps me loads. For one thing I won't be spending such and such on gym membership fees that I won't be able to go to daily or every other day or whatever coz by the time I get my arse home from work I'll be too damn tired and lazy to drive out to the gym! Now if I only have one job then I don't think going out after I get home from work would be a problem, but since I have two jobs I'm juggling plus I'll be attending some part-time classes come Septemeber (provided I get to enroll for the classes I need to take for the course I have in mind), going to the gym won't even end up in my Top 5 Things Needed to be Done!

Not quite what I expected...

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 07:03:36 GMT

Compared to the 5th movie, I'd say this one was better than the last one. However, I still wasn't at all thrilled about it, having read the book and I was kinda expecting to see certain scenes done up almost exactly the same way it was done in the book. For instance the Harry/Ginny kiss. That was my most fave scene in the 6th book (shortly after the Quiddith try-outs), and I was anticipating to see HOW it was going to be retold when the book was turned to a movie.

Well, that scene between Harry & Ginny in the Room of Requirement didn't even make me giggle! And although throughout the entire movie it was hinted that there was an attraction between Harry and Ginny...well, I just didn't feel it. But I have to give props to the Hermione-Ron-Lavander triangle; the scene in the hospital wing was just classic! Poor Ron wasn't aware exactly HOW he and Lav broke up, hehehe.

Anyway, it was still a good movie. I have to give major props to Tom Felton, who played a pivotal role in the movie. His tortured Draco was really very believable. I knew he already had the annoying Draco down to a T, but for him to put in that much emotion and uncertainty when he had to deal with what he was tasked to do...epic!

Now next on my MOVIES TO WATCH is...The Ugly Truth! I'm off Monday so I think I'll drag Mom along with me Sunday and we'll watch it. I heard from my sis that she didn't stop laughing the entire time, so we'll see if the movie was indeed that hilarious.

Here's MY *UPDATED* MOVIE LIST:

Australia (Nicole Kidman, Hugh Jackman)
Transporter 3 (Jason Statham)
Narnia: the Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (????)
Narnia: Prince Caspian (????)
Wanted (Angelina Jolie, Morgan Freeman)
Star Wars IV, V & VI (Harrison Ford, Mark Hamill)
Indiana Jones I, II, III (Harrison Ford)
Indiana Jones IV (Harrison Ford, Shia LeBouf)
Eragon (Jeremy Irons)
Quantum of Solace (Daniel Craig)
Madagascar 2 (Chris Rock, Jada Pinkett-Smith)
The Dark Knight (Christian Bale)
Mamma Mia! (Meryl Streep, Pierce Brosnan, Colin Firth)
Bones Season 3 (David Boreanaz, Emily Deschenel)
Beowulf (Ray Winstone, Angelina Jolie)
Hellboy II: The Golden Army (Ron Perlman, Selma Blair)
If Only (Jennifer Love Hewitt, Paul Nicholls)
Match Point (Scarlett Johansson, Jonathan Rhys-Meyers)
Anastasia (voices of Meg Ryan, John Cusack)
Aquamarine (Sara Paxton, Emma Roberts)
Eagle Eye (Shia LaBeouf)
Wall-E (???)
National Treasure 2: Book of Secrets (Nicholas Cage)
Max Payne (Mark Wahlberg)
Bad Girls (Drew Barrymore, Andie MacDowell, Madeleine Stowe, Mary Stuart Masterson)
The Day the Earth Stood Still (Keanu Reeves)
Timeline (Paul Walker, Gerard Butler)
The Island (Ewan MacGregor, Scarlett Johansson)
The Mummy 3 (Brendan Fraser, Jet Li)
Hancock (Will Smith, Charlize Theron)
The Perfect Score (Scarlett Johansson, Chris Evans)
Alvin and the Chipmunks the Movie (???)
Babylon A.D. (Vin Diesel, Michelle Yeoh)
Serenity (Nathan Fillion, Summer Gladue)
The Women (Meg Ryan, Annette Benning, Debra Messing, Jada Pinkett-Smith, Eva Mendez)
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button (Brad Pitt, Cate Blanchett)
Underworld: Rise of the Lycans (Bill Nighy, Rhona Mitra)
Inkheart (Brendan Fraser, Helen Mirren)
Hotel for Dogs (Emma Roberts, Lisa Kudrow)
The Marine (????)
Race to Witch Mountain (Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson, Carla Gugino)
He's Just Not That Into You (Drew Barrymore, Scarlett Johansson)
Watchmen (????)
Fast & Furious (Paul Walker, Vin Diesel, Michelle Rodriguez, Jordanna Brewster)
Push (Dakota Fanning, Chris Evans)
New in Town (Renee Zellwegger, Harry Connick Jr)
The Secret Life of Bees (Queen Latifa, Dakota Fanning, Alicia Keys, Jennifer Hudson)
The Cutting Edge 3: Chasing the Dream (Matt Lanter, Christy Romano)
Scent of a Woman (Al Pacino, Chris O'Donnell)
Sleepless in Seattle (Meg Ryan, Tom Hanks)
17 Again (Zac Efron, Matthew Perry)
Ghosts of Girlfriends Past (Matthew McConoughey, Jennifer Garner, Michael Douglas)
X-Men Origin: Wolverine (Hugh Jackman, Ryan Reynolds)
Transformers Revenge of the Fallen (Shia LeBouf, Megan Fox, Tyrese, Josh Duhammel)
The Proposal (Sandra Bullock, Ryan Reynolds)
Star Trek (Chris Pine, John Cho)
Personal Effects (Ashton Kutcher, Michelle Pfeiffer)
Easy Virtue (Jessica Biel, Ben Barnes, Colin Firth)
Outlander (Jim Caviezel, Sophia Myles)
The Time Traveler's Wife (Eric Bana, Rachel McAdams)
The Ugly Truth (Gerard Butler, Katherine Heigl)